Hey, friend. I know that feeling.
You’re absolutely and entirely alone. No one cares, no one listens, and no one understands you or what you’re going through. No one even tries, do they?
You are judged relentlessly. You feel tormented, both by others and yourself. Your life is characterized by panic, depression, and self-hatred. Every day you have to try to find the motivation just to get out of bed, and every night you struggle with your desire to end your misery. You cry out in your own obvious ways every single day because part of you wants someone to know. Part of you screams with all your might for someone to listen and help you. But your family is so busy that they aren’t around for you like they should be, and the few genuine friends you have must not love you enough to notice, you think. You feel hopeless, powerless, and worthless. You’re sick and tired of being sick and tired. You want to end your life.
But you don’t want to die. You just need your pain to go away.
Remember to breathe, friend. I’ve been there.
Life gets grueling and exhausting, but suicide is always the wrong choice. Killing yourself is easy on you; once you’re gone, your pain will be relinquished and that’s all you have to ever know again. It’s too bad that no one else is that lucky.
Your parents and siblings who were never around enough will find your body and note the morning after you take your pills or slit your wrists. Each letter of your note will be burned into their memories; they will live with that still, lifeless image of you for the rest of their lives. Your friends who never seemed to notice will get the news and collapse. They will hate themselves and slit their own wrists, shameful that they weren’t good enough to save you. Everyone - your family, your best friends, your classmates, your teachers, your tumblr friends, your neighbors - will all stop smiling permanently. If you truly think that your life is a burden, then you need to realize how your death will actually cripple the people around you.
You won’t get the chance to see it, but the easy way out you take will undoubtedly make everyone else’s lives unbearable. Missing your smile will be too hard to handle. Your sudden absence from this world will only cause eternal emptiness, endless grief, and more abrupt absences. Your suicide will slowly but surely kill everyone you ever loved and knew. I’m not wrong, I’m not lying to you, and I don’t mean to guilt you. It’s just so important that you comprehend how many people you will destroy by taking your life away from them.
Friend, please remember to breathe.
You are incredibly wrong if you think that your life is insignificant. If you let yourself live and grow through this, you will accomplish astounding feats, experience amazing things, and change the fucking world someday. You’ve dealt with your troubles for so long now that your resilience and strength are clear and self-evident. Because of this fact alone, I know that you can pick yourself back up again, friend. There’s only one direction to move in once you’ve hit the bottom.
And there are so people around you who care about what you’re going through and want to help. Your family and friends may be oblivious, but they care about you more than you could ever understand. Many like myself have stood in your exact position and have lived to tell our stories. We can support you and help you understand. You don’t have to be alone with your pain, friend. Your life has changed our lives so much. Please let someone be there for you. We will remind you of how beautiful and amazing you are.
If you don’t think you have anyone in your life, you’re still wrong. I’m here and I fucking love you. I am concerned, I am interested, and I want to assist. I will listen to you. I will shelter you. I will stand with you. You are better than what you’re going through, I promise.
Now exhale one last time, and put your razors, ropes, and bottles away,friend. Get rid of them. It’s time to surround yourself with happiness, positivity, hope, and reassurance in yourself. Don’t be afraid to get help wherever you can. You’ve already taken the first step. :)
I can’t wait to see the success you achieve.
Please come talk to me anytime, friend. I’m here! I promise.
If you’re looking for advice outside of myself, check out any of the following advice blogs:
And if you would like to talk to someone who is trained and anonymous, please consider one of the services below:
- Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
- Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
- LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
- Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
- Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
- Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
- Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
- Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
- Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
- Exhale- After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-439-4253
(If you know someone who is suicidal, learn how to handle the situation by getting edcuated. If you have an advice or inspirational blog that you think might be useful to have displayed on this page, just let me know.)